It’s a rainy day and it makes me cry. Yesterday a friend I had not seen in a year came and what she thought she had overcome, is back, her husband once more wanted a divorce. Her deep love has kept them together for almost three years now. I feel her pain and reach out with my heart, and often, afterwards my tears.
Hard decisions are the worst ones to make. We are psychic’s not trained counselors, but we are also women, who have had men who cheated, have had men who were not clear on what they want from us, and so, regardless of self, we jump through the hoops. This time is different, he wants her to be more romantic, sexual, and more attentive to him. He also wants her to quit her job;
which pays very well, and which she spent some ten months training to qualify. I know as I encouraged to reach out and get things for herself. Now as I listen I find myself praying that God gives her the answers she needs to find.She won’t do it. Fear is something that happens when your husband demands divorce, sex, and caring alternately. I measure her body responses, she is alert, she is dressed positively, she has come up from the coast to visit her daughter. We speak about things that she has now, that she lost before, a beloved cat, a working car, and she feels positive.
This is the job and the life she has carved out where she is living now. The card for strength comes in her near future. I ask her, “Are you going to quit your job?” She asks, “Should I?” and all the things I want to say float through my mind. Sometimes silence is the best answer. She states, “I’m not going to, you know that.” We leave each other with joy. There are words unsaid but thoughts have combined. We are united. Love is a rock in the middle of a stormy sea.
Tears are at times a validation. A decision to stand up for yourself, for what you believe in, is creative of a strong self. We have many choices to make in life; sometimes it is hard, but necessary, to choose yourself.